pretty much you sit down or lay down on your bed and just listen to the thoughts in your head they are screaming sometimes its just disturbing , sometimes we dont want to know what goes on in our heads but thats the thing we have to , it sickens me just to go on a day without having time to myself and think lay down rewind to those boring sad days , days that have gone by that havent made sense ever since ” why i did that ?” why i said that ?” what was going through my head at the time ?” things just dont make sense half of the time and for a second dont think you are stupid thats not the problem . i guess we all need to just take time for ourselves our thoughts and you might be thinking oh well that’s stupid , well we make mistakes we dont care about fixing them oh we are young with no regrets think ! if we just analyze those things that got to us that bother us just funny shit men that made us laugh the sarcasm. i guess shit can be different right well pretty much like today all i been thinking is oh how of a fake i can be how i say to myself oh i will do my diet today and do those things those are just thoughts scrolling through my mind and thats the problem they are just scrolling i actually barely call it thinking its like a blur i can get anything done cause of all the blur so i came home and thought fuck men i didnt get shit done cause why stuff was just scrolling if i can just make those thoughts that i actually recall plans stay there wouldnt be no problem so i just sat and talked to myself ( yes talking to yourself we do it all the time and its not a crazy thing ) “i have to start slacking ” i need to start getting my priorities straight ! and BAM ! it started to sink in. 

Anya Marina Satellite Heart